Euthanasia

With a lethargic heart
it's getting much colder in here
pound my lethargic heart
it feels so much older
it won't start

I can't win
my skeleton
tries to crawl out
from under my skin
sometimes it feels like
I'll never ever win

and it feels like a million times just now
or it feels like a trillion hours just passed
over me
through me
off of me
I'm so uncomfortable
kill me
reach into my chest a second time
take my heart
it can't be called a crime
just rip
and pull
and tear it out
It's almost dead
it's all burned out

Rip it out, it's almost dead it's euthanasia

With my aging heart
I'm almost saddened by you
but I'll remember the time
when I was much younger
with young girls
and I had never been shaken then
and I can forget all those
many
many times
but because of you
I felt plugged into so many machines

and it feels like a million times just now
or it feels like a trillion hours just passed
over me
through me
off of me
I'm so uncomfortable kill me
reach into my chest a second time
take my heart
it can't be called a crime
just rip
and pull
and tear it out
It's almost dead
it's all burned out

Rip it out, it's almost dead it's euthanasia

With a congested heart
it's just too hard to see clear
with these thickened veins
I'll sit
and smoke
and wonder
how it still works
and if I think of you
I can hear this old heart
sputter through
sometimes it feels like I'll never
ever
ever
forgive you

and it feels like a million times just now
or it feels like a trillion hours just passed
over me
through me
off of me
I'm so uncomfortable kill me
reach into my chest a second time
take my heart
it can't be called a crime
just rip
and pull
and tear it out
It's almost dead
it's all burned out

Rip it out, it's almost dead it's euthanasia

Copyright 1995 cSide Records
Written by Seven Graylands
Reprinted by permission